Daredevil done right

I finished Daredevil the new Netflix series and I have to say it was great.  Now I haven't watched the other Marvel series Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. which all of my friends say I should but I just I haven't call me lazy, but I think the quality of both shows is pretty good.  The thing I like about Daredevil is even though that it takes place in the same time frame as the movies, I think it is in between the first Avengers movie and Winter Solider, is that it really feels grounded. It is not about saving the whole world just the world that Matt Murdock and his friends live in Hell's Kitchen. It proves that even though a gigantic event like the Battle for New York happens life continues to move on and the corrupt continue to try and control everything.

Now to address the movie Daredevil I saw it  a while back and I don't think it was all bad nor was it bad because of Ben Affleck was bad in it.  He gave it his all and was a pretty damn good Matt Murdock, Charlie Cox is great to in the new series. What made that movie bad was the over all story and Colin Farell as Bullseye and the late Michael Clarke Duncan as Wilson Fisk.  They aren't bad actors it's just that Farrell's Bullseye was just way over the top, he reminded me of kids I knew in high school who called themselves crazy and did stupid shit to justify how crazy and different they were. Duncan's portrayal as Wilson Fisk was a bit better he certainly had the size but he just played him to much like a cocky gangster, always winking at the fact that he was up to no good but owned half the city so he could do what he wanted.  All of that combined with a bad story and you just have shit movie on your hands.

Remembering

Last weekend was a damn good time, it was something that I really didn't know I needed.  Last weekend was a Remembrance Event at Cogswell College my Alma Mater.  I got to see people I haven't seen in years and talk about old times and more importantly feel those old times again.   It was just interesting being back there, I mean I go there all the time to play D&D and see some of the friends that still go there but to be back there with people I had classes with and graduated with or watched graduate before me and remembering all those old times made way more of an impact than I thought it would.  Walking around talking about things that happened was different then it was when I graduated, it felt more final yet it was a thrill to remember everything that happened within those walls for better or worse.

I was 22 when I arrived at Cogswell and 26 when I graduated from it.  In those 4 years I did not think that it would become the home it did nor did I expect to change as drastically as I have or meet the people I did and connect with them in such a way that I don't just call them friends I call them family. The family that I made there was forged in the fires of midterms, final projects, event/parties, battling the administration, as well as dealing with the curve balls that life loves to throw at us.  In all of that I look back at it fondly still smile at the times that were had, one of the best being a 3 week last semester party/study group for my brother that involved playing games, writing a 20 page paper in between playing games, modeling, sculpting and lots of alcohol.  Sorry not sorry that we broke the rules like that, Kraken rum is awesome though.  It's moments like that that I think I will remember for as long as I can and will keep talking about it for a long time.  I will also look back at that night as being a great moment to, capped off by having them let us write and draw all over the walls.  That was a great time and it was pretty damn cool to see how fast we covered the school I hope they let people do something like that at the new campus because to me that is how the school should look. Art everywhere no blank spaces left.

Confessing.....An interesting relief

Haven't done one in a while been busy; this thing called a job tends to suck all the energy out of you. I had something happen to me a few weeks ago maybe longer I forget. It was surprisingly good, though it didn't make me feel good in the "yippy I am happy happy" way, it made me feel I guess you could say relieved.  My experience with telling someone I have feelings for them never turned out great, really being in a car accident would probably turn out better than what I had happen before. But it was driving me nuts not telling them how I felt.  We would hangout, relax, talk, do whatever and then we would end the night and I would stay up later than I wanted pissed off at myself for not saying how I felt.  I would usually have this conversation going on in my brain for the entire time we were hanging out and after:

"DO IT NOW! NOW DAMN IT!"
"No I don't think it would be great idea."
"Why they hell didn't you say anything? You dumbass!"
"I guess we are staying up till 4 pondering this decision or the lack of one aren't we?"
"Oohhhh you bet we are!"
"Maaannn, I just want to sleep and forget all of this."
"Well you should have told them now shouldn't you!"

Yeah that always made the next day feel really shitty and I made a promise to myself that I would tell them how I felt the next time.  Took a lot of next times as it turns out and I don't regret finally doing it.  I keep thinking how much of a relief it is and that might make some think that I am just glad it's finally over and that is only partially true.  I am relieved that I don't have to keep second guessing myself or that by telling them will ruin the friendship which I was really afraid of happening.  I truly respect the friendship that I have with them and didn't want to screw it up by telling them how I felt and having them think all I want is a relationship. I am just glad that I said something finally and we didn't delay in talking about it like adults that didn't lead to a ruined friendship and hurt feelings. If anything I feel like this has made the friendship better then having all that hover over us.

While on some level I would like a relationship to happen I am not down on myself or them for one not happening.  I am not a teenager it was not the end of the world that the same feelings were not reciprocated.  The fact that we can move on from this despite it now being out in the open is what matters and the friendship can continue which I am very grateful for.  I am not expecting anything to happen or will force it to happen because of my own selfish reasons putting them in an awkward position.  While I don't doubt that things will be awkward between us for a bit it will subside, and everything will be normal again.  No one was hurt in this, it left one person a little shocked another relived and a friendship a little better I think.  I still can't really nail down why I feel so relieved by it but maybe it is just that I built it up in my head for so long that it finally being out there has made me realize how much over thinking I was doing when it was really quite simple.

Confessing things is really an interesting a experience.  I encourage people of course under the right circumstances to do it yourself instead of bottling it up.  It could be great, it could be horrible but at the very least you won't have to keep it inside where it festers and starts affect you physically.  It is good for the soul and for the body.

Backlogging

Ohhhhhhhh boy! I recently went through a list of games that I have and while I have played some I have yet to finish them and god damn there are a lot. Not as many as some may think, but it is still a lot especially when I have big games like Far Cary 3 to finish and The Witcher 2 to start.  On top of those two I also have the Assassin's Creed 2 Ezio trilogy which almost feels like a chore at this point; AC 2 is a good game but there is just something about it that makes me.....I don't know irked I guess.  I think there is just too much to do in that game and like the problem with most open world games most of the side stuff and collectibles to get don't relate to the main story as a whole.

Besides all that it kind of upsets me a little that I can't power game like I use to, go through a whole game in a day or two.  It could be because I am getting older or the fact that I am trying to be more productive at making my own projects happen I am not sure really.  Far Cry 3 has lit a fire in me though, I found my self playing that for 6 hours straight one day never getting board of it and always finding something to do.  I am almost finished with it and while there are some design issues I have with it, like being way too powerful by the end and also [SPOILER ALERT] killing the best villain way to soon because there is someone worse supposedly, it is still a great game that I need to finish. Currently however I am into playing Spelunky at the moment I missed the craze that happened over that game 2 years ago but it is still a freaking good game as frustrating as it is still has me comign back in for more.

People Who I Would Like to have a Drink With Part 1

This is a list I have in my head, part of a list, of people who I would say I admire and respect for the various things they have done and their influence on me as a person.  I wouldn't say that I idolize them but I do respect them, and in most cases I don't think I would want an autograph even though that would be cool but I would just like a chance to maybe talk with one of them for a bit over a drink if we could just to say....I don't know what I would say maybe thank you to a few of them, but really it is fun thinking about what it would be like if the opportunity ever came up.  For now here are a few of the people on this list in no particular order and a smallish reason why I would very much like to have a drink with them.

Neil DeGrasse Tyson- I found Dr. Tyson randomly on the History Channel talking about what black holes are and what they would do to humans and the planet, and then later on found a bunch of videos on YouTube of him just lecturing and doing Q&As. All of them are awesome to watch, my favorite is a video called "greatest sermon ever" very inspiring for me give it a watch, it is fantastic to just listen to.  I think Tyson's passion for all things science and space exploration is very real and can't be contained but also goes beyond those two basic things, given the fact that he is very articulate and has a wealth of knowledge it’s hard to pretend to even act bored when he is speaking.  When I found his videos online it helped me through some difficult unsure times.  I would love the chance to talk to the man who has helped me understand the world a lot more then I have thought possible on a scale that sometimes sends me into a bit of a panic. It would be interesting just to hear his thoughts on things that are out there in the world or better yet the misalliance things that maybe go unnoticed.

Movies of 2015! All the crazy that will happen!

I like going to the movie theaters. I love it!

I like the smell of the popcorn, I love seeing the trailers of new movies coming out, or on occasion ripping ones that look stupid, it can't be helped sometimes you have to do it.

But seeing the movie I paid to see is the real treat, especially if it's a move I have been wanting and waiting to see, it's always a fun time.  It's great to see a movie with an audience everyone reacting the same, whether it's with laughter, or cheers, or screams, or in tense scenes where everyone is holding their breath.  No matter what you can't really duplicate that feeling at home, no matter how big your TV is those reactions aren't there.  I remember the fun it was to see Marvel's Avengers in a sold out theater and how everyone last their shit during the last battle and how Hulk just whooped Loki.  Still thinking about it makes me smile, and oh look at all the movies coming out this year that I hope make me smile like that again.

2015 is the year I will Blog more

Hello everyone! No the above title is not a New Year's resolution, I have never really done things like that, but I am hoping that this year will be better then the last one and to do that I will make it happen. And I will start by going on here more and writing a post hopefully more then twice a year, I'll shoot for at least once a month and try to make it more then that.

If anyone reads this thinking that this blog will be just a blog about game design well I might change that.  Form this day forth I think it will be a blog about....me.  I am a nerd who is into game design and currently working on a board game at the moment, I like art, doing my own art (it kind of sucks), writing fiction, playing games, movies, science fiction, fantasy, and the list goes on and on.  So from here on in this blog will be about whatever the hell is on my mind and that just sounds dandy to me.

Cheers to 2015 being something other then....